Fifth and sixth chemotherapy....

It has truly been an unforgettable week. Last Thursday my son had his weekly chemotherapy treatment. He only receive vincristine which is the fifteen minute treatment, but is the treatment that cause the worst side effects. As soon has they administered the chemo, Dalen went right to sleep. Friday came and he did not sleep has much as normal and was able to finish some missing school work. However on Saturday afternoon, I had to take him to the emergency room for a fever. They took his blood for testing and gave him an 24 hour antibiotic. We were in the ER from 4:00 pm until 10:30 pm. It was a long night, but his fever came down. On Sunday we had to return back to the ER for the second dose of the antibiotic. This was a very short visit. Dalen wasn't able to attend school on Monday because his body was exhausted. I was thinking since he only received the one chemo on Thursday that on Monday he would be ready to go, but from the two ER visits his body just didn't get enough rest. However, he was back to his self on Tuesday and Wednesday and was able to attend school. Then came Thursday again! It was a fight to get Dalen out the bed this morning, he wanted to stay home from school. He didn't want to go to treatment! He didn't want to drink his ensure! This morning was a fight! I just wanted to say "Okay Dalen let's stay home", but I couldn't. This journey is the most difficult situation I have ever had to go through, not being able to give my son what he wants is heart breaking. Seeing my son cry ever night wishing it could be just over, is heart breaking. Seeing the sadness on his face because he is so frustrated not be able to see, is heart breaking. I wish I could help him! I wish I could fix it! ...Earlier this week Dalen said" Mama, I'm not special as in handicap, I'm not normal because I can't see that good, so I'm just me!" My baby is trying to find a place to fit in. He's not able to be himself and it hurts him. He puts on a smile when he out, but he cries behind close doors. Please Lord make a way!...after today's chemotherapy treatment Dalen was invited to his past Elementary school to give a speech for their Black History Program, however he wasn't able to speak because he was to weak from the chemo. But to our surprise the school had a donation presentation for him. He was so surprised and honored to be so loved. Every day is a fight for Dalen but the love that has been showed, the prayers that has been sent, the cards that has been delivered, and the phone/text messages that has been made has been so up lifting. Please continue to pray for Dalen.....