Third chemotherapy treatment....

Yesterday was Dalen's third chemotherapy treatment. Dalen walked in normal with the biggest smile on his face. He performed several new magic tricks that had everyone amazed and shaking their hands in shock. The day was going well until it was time to start the treatment process. As the nurse went to insert the needle into Dalen's port, his attitude changed instantly. He no longer had that big smile on his face nor were there anymore magic tricks. His personality went to sad and tired. My son looked at me and said " Mommy I don't want to do chemo." Tears begin to feel my eyes because I felt the same way, I don't want my son doing chemo anymore. Chemotherapy is like a bad person that every time you see or hear it your stomach turns and you feel disgusted. I knew my son was tired of this treatment. On the way to the treatment he mentioned how this would be our regular routine. On Thursday chemo treatment, then Friday and Saturday he's so sleepy drained, and in some kind of pain. Sunday and Monday, He is not so sleepy but still in pain and then on Tuesday and Wednesday He regains all his strength and feels just a little pain. However then it's Thursday again and It's starts back over! Dalen cried three times today during treatment from feeling so overwhelm. The registered nurse asked him several questions about how he was feeling, she asked if he wanted to talk to someone before treatment, did he need distractions before and during the process of the treatment and if he wanted to take a pill to ease the anxiety he was experiencing. My son's response blew me away! Dalen first answer was I'll take the distractions like videos games because I don't want to take another medicine with another side effect. He is tired of not being able to be Dalen because of all this medication. I had to reassure my son that it will be okay. God knows what He is doing. I remind him of the unbearable pain Jesus went through for us. Jesus pain wasn't in vain nor would Dalen's. This journey is not for the weak, because Dalen you were chosen. Dalen has to keep the faith that this journey is a testimony and he is already Healed in Jesus name Amen! Please keep my son in your prayers he and I need more strength, more faith, and more LOVE.