This Tuesday I walked out of the Oncologist office in tears. It was Dalen's three month MRI to see if the tumors are shrinking or stable. The MRI photos showed that the tumors on the left and right of his brain have shrunk and is no longer visible on the scan. And the cluster of tumors between his two eyes are stable; yes, this is good news. However, these results does not explain the recent results from the Ophthalmologist who stated that Dalen has lost his peripheral view in his left eye.
Normally, Dalen's eye vision is effect by the tumors on his optic nerve. When the tumors shrink his eye vision improves and when the tumors increase in size his eye vision worsen. But this is not the case this time. I'm so confused! My baby is still loosing his eyesight! No! No! No!
As the doctor was telling Dalen and I this news tears are just flowing. I'm trying to stop them from coming down my face just to show Dalen that it's going to be okay. I wanted to looked strong and give him encouragement but I couldn't! Realizing that I'm his mother and can't make this better. I can't say " I give him a bandage and the bleeding will stop, nor here's an ice pack to take the swelling down." This situation is out of my control.
As Dalen and I was walking towards to the car, I turn to look at Dalen and saw his face. He had no tears, just a smile! He looks at me and say "Mama stop crying, you know I'm going to be okay!" Dalen he always surprise me. His faith is remarkable! The tears stop right then and there. My son just encouraged me! We talked about God and how he has shown us miracles everyday. God is our encouragement and He has the last say. We must humble ourselves to accept the plan and path He has for us here on earth.
Dalen may have lost his peripheral view in his left eye; this does not mean anything. If we look back were we started from three years ago, dalen could not see anything out of his left eye. And his right eye was 20/100 straight forward and no peripheral view. But now his right eye is 20/40 with peripheral view and the left eye is 20/100. God is Good!!!
Faith is all we have....please continue to keep my son in your thoughts and prayers.❤️
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